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Name: Melinda May Age/Date of Birth: Classified / November 20 Sexuality: Bisexual Housing: Random Prospective Job: Soldier or Guard Fandom: Marvel’s Agents of Shield Medium: TV Show Canon point: Post Season 2 Finale Items of Note: None.
PB: Ming Na Wen
PERSONALITY There was a time when love was blind Melinda May was warm, finding trouble around every corner and felt that rules were to be broken. That was a Melinda that enjoyed the friendships that SHIELD had given to her. A Melinda that was a loving wife. A Melinda that wanted nothing more than to start a family with her husband and continue working in the field. And all it took was one mission to tear her apart. To destroy the Melinda that everyone knew. Bahrain brought forth a new Melinda May. One who recoiled from physical contact; especially with her hands. A Melinda who distanced herself from everyone and became quieter than the Melinda of old. This new Melinda felt undeserving of love and certainly couldn’t raise a child. Marriage, motherhood and the field no longer fit into her life. The new May liked her solitude and her cubicle in Administration.
To properly explain who the hell this Melinda May person is one should look at who she surrounds herself with. Each and every person that she allows into her life is a window into the person that she was, is, and has the potential to be again.
First we have Phil Coulson. Phil Coulson is a window into the deep friendships that she is capable of forming. Friendships that run so deep that she would do whatever is necessary to protect them. SHIELD was built on the idea of protection and May takes it so much farther. Yes, she is willing to go farther for Phil Coulson than any other but she has also known him the longest. Suffered through losing him once. If she can prevent that from happening a second time by any means necessary she will. Once Melinda May lets you in you have a protector for life. Unless of course you betray her.
Next we have Grant Ward. Grant Ward represents the part of Melinda that knows a distraction will take your mind off your demons. He is also a window into the Melinda that is at a point where she’ll allow physical contact back in. For so long she had avoided it but Ward -- at a time -- was her kindred spirit in that he too had been through something traumatic. She hadn’t allowed anyone that close to her since Bahrain but perhaps it was time to try.
FitzSimmons, Tripp, Hunter, Bobbi and Mack all represent the Melinda that holds people at a distance. Especially following the fall of SHIELD. To truly get to know her you have to prove your loyalty and earn her trust. And once you’ve done that well you have someone who will do anything to protect you.
Lastly we have Skye. Oh sweet precious Skye. Skye once was a window into May pre-Bahrain. A May that felt that rules should be broken and knew how to have fun. But now Skye also represents that part of Melinda that wanted to be a mother. Though she has convinced herself that she is undeserving of being a mother that longing is still there. Albeit buried beneath the pain of Bahrain. But Skye also represents so much more than just that. Skye is now that little girl that Melinda could not save. For 7 long years Melinda has struggled with what she was forced to do. Now she is confronted with another powered girl that she is oh so afraid of failing. And god dammit she will do whatever it takes to not fail her.
HISTORY Melinda Qiaolian May was born to Lian May an intelligence operative; most likely of the CIA or NSA. Her father is unimportant. She attended the Operations Division of the SHIELD Academy and became a specialist upon graduation. On one of her first missions with Agent Phil Coulson she was left in the bay for hours before they rescued her.
When May was carefree and warm, not battle hardened and broken, she was married to Doctor Andrew Garner; a psychologist. They were young at heart and very much in love. The morning she left for Bahrain they spoke of expanding their family and taking a vacation together. As most couples do. But they would never expand their family or take that very special vacation.
Bahrain was intended to be like other “welcome wagon” missions. Go in, assess the gifted individual, talk them into returning with them, and come home. And after every mission, Melinda, always returned home. But their friendly “welcome wagon” approach went south quickly and their team leader was forced to send in the cavalry. May sat outside with Coulson listening in on the comms hoping for a positive outcome. They had to save that little girl and stop the gifted from hurting anyone else. One man had died already. No more lives need be lost. Then all hell broke loose and then there was complete silence.
May was raised in an environment where following rules and orders was expected. Perhaps that is one reason why she was able to become such a great prankster without getting caught. But when it came down to something as serious as a mission, May followed orders. When Fury ordered them to wait for backup despite the Bahraini militia enroute to their position, orders and rules instantaneously became irrelevant. If they waited any longer that little girl could die if she hadn’t already. With Coulson’s go ahead, May, left the van and proceeded to find an entrance into the warehouse.
Knowing that what she was about to do was dangerous -- and though she was more than prepared to do what was necessary -- she called Andrew. Melinda needed to hear his voice and his reassurance that he understood the position she was in. She had to go in and rescue that little girl. And that was what she was going to do. Because Melinda longed to be a mother and knowing an innocent child was in danger ate away at her soul.
Once she was inside she began to see that there was more to their gifted, Eva, than previously known. Their tactical team -- which they had believed dead -- was under a form of mind control that she could not break. The only solution was to take the gifted out to save them all. Her fight with Eva went on for awhile with them both dealing some painful blows. Eva, more so, than Melinda. But May gained the upper hand and impaled Eva with a broken floor lamp.
It wasn’t until the little girl came out from her hiding place that May realized the reality of it all. Eva had never been the gifted individual. The little girl had. Melinda tried reasoning with her. Explaining how she could help. That she would be all right if only she put her hands down. With each word, May, slid backwards, until her hand reached the gun Eva had dropped. As her fingers slowly slid the gun around she knew what needed to be done. Many would not understand her choice but there was no alternative. So, Melinda, picked up the gun firing a deadly shot at the little girl. Before her body could even hit the ground Melinda caught her. And proceeded to hold her. Her eyes stared off into the distance. Later, after breaking down in Coulson’s arms, Melinda made a decision. She could no longer live her life the way that she had before Bahrain.
Not long after returning home she put in for a transfer to Administration. Leaving SHIELD was not an option available to her. But sitting at a desk stapling papers allowed her the solitude that she desperately felt she needed. The day her transfer approval came in was also the very day that she received an award for her efforts in Bahrain. Melinda will forever hate that medal. It was a painful reminder and she was undeserving. Being given a medal for killing a child was a giant slap in the face. But that medal is also something that Melinda holds onto. Because despite Coulson telling her to “let the girl go” she never fully could. The little girl would be with her always.
Melinda and Andrew barely lasted a year after Bahrain. Little by little she continued to shut him out. Much like she did with everyone. Andrew tried. Boy did he try. But Melinda had a fear of physical contact and was continually disgusted with herself. She wasn’t the woman that he had married and Andrew deserved far better. So, Melinda, cut him loose and divorced him. Her mother had been fond of Andrew and though Lian has never admitted it, Melinda, is almost certain her mother still hates her for divorcing him.
After the Battle for New York, Melinda, was even less of the person that she was before. She wasn’t entirely sure what to expect when Director Fury showed at her home after a long day. But learning that Phil Coulson had been killed by Loki had not been it. Melinda said nothing in the minutes that followed. Showed no emotion. It was as if it was just a normal day. Deep inside, however, what remained of her heart was crumbling. Phil Coulson was always going to be her dearest friend. Even if she had kept their friendship going from afar. But now he was gone. In the days that followed, Melinda, focused on her work and Tai Chi. When Natasha was in town they often sparred but for the most part her life was as it had been for the last five years. Alone.
In administration is where she remains until Coulson stops by her cubicle and presents her with an offer. Prior to Coulson coming to recruit her to join his team, Nick Fury, approached her with a mission. When Phil approached her and gave her an offer to join his team she should accept and watch his back. And if necessary to take him out. Though Coulson ultimately chose the members of his team the exact specifications were given to Fury after May assessed what would be needed to take Phil down if the need arose. There was never a question of her declining the mission asked of her. Phil Coulson was alive and she was the only one who knew him better than he knew himself. It was time to go into the field again.
May led Coulson to believe that she was joining his team to simply be the pilot. But nothing is ever that simple with SHIELD. Their first mission involved finding a newly discovered unregistered gifted by using a "consultant" that they had kidnapped. She was going to help them find Mike Peterson and if all went according to plan they'd get to Mike before anyone else. And before the Extremist running through his veins caused him to explode. Mike, however, still perceived SHIELD as a threat and "rescued" Skye from them; knocking May out in the process. When she came to she was less than thrilled. It wasn't long after that she was forced to take a man down. The first sign of combat since she had returned to the field.
May wouldn't see true combat until their very next mission. They were tasked with processing an 084 in Peru and they later came under fire from the rebels in the area. To say May was annoyed would be an understatement. But when Fury had approached her with her "secondary mission" deep down she knew it may happen somewhere down the line. So, May, ignored Coulson and allowed him to prattle on until he left. Allowing her the complete solitude that she was able to find in the cockpit. Not long after they entered restricted airspace -- on their way to the Slingshot -- were they all forced to work together as a team. Up until then they hadn't been getting along and if it wasn't resolved soon lives could be lost.
As a unit they came up with a plan, a ridiculous plan that involved blowing a hole in the side of the bus, but a plan to retake control of their home from Reyes and her men. While the team worked to do just that May made her way to the cockpit. No one flew her plane without her permission. And she was pissed they had knocked her out and tied her up. After regaining control of the plane and guiding them to land at the Slingshot, May, watched as the 084 they had recovered was launched on a trajectory towards the sun. Tesseract technology was too dangerous for anyone to have so destroying it was the right solution.
Because of her position as a specialist -- though she hadn't officially been one since Bahrain -- May was annoyed that she was kept off the strike team that went in after Doctor Franklin Hall. She had expected to be included but instead had been relegated to work in the background. When the mission was concluded and everyone was back on the bus, May, approached Coulson and officially declared that she wasn't going to just be "the pilot" anymore. She couldn't very well carry out Fury's orders to watch Coulson's back if she was to remain on the plane during ops like this. Coulson wasn't a specialist. He was a field agent. And the training for the two were entirely different. Specialists were intended to be the ones to get the field agents out of harm's way and/or take out the enemy force if necessary. Her return to combat duty was put to the test immediately.
Though Coulson had warned her off, May, disobeyed his orders and went and apprehended his former protege. May remained skeptical about Akela Amador because as far as SHIELD was concerned she was dead. And yet here she now was very much alive and working against them. Her opinion changed when it was revealed she was being controlled. The last words Akela spoke to May haunted her thoughts for weeks to come. May hadn't truly seen anything to be concerned about in Coulson's behaviour but his former protege could tell something had been done. Those words made her wonder just how many agents that had known Coulson before had seen something had changed since his return.
May was forced to inject Chan Ho Yin, a registered gifted, with an overdose of the serum that they had first encountered with Mike Peterson while on a rescue mission in Hong Kong. The plan had been to rescue him but when he turned against them she was left with no other choice. Sometimes you had to make that difficult choice that some might not understand. She assured Coulson that the reason he felt different since the Battle of New York was that he was different. No one could go through what he had and come out unchanged.
When Simmons "accidentally shot" Jasper Sitwell, May, took care of the problem. And later when Fitz and Ward were in need of an extraction she flew the bus in and rescued them before they could be captured. To the shock of all, May, was able to hold and fight with all three pieces of the berserker staff whilst on a mission in Ireland. When questioned she revealed that she was able to hold all three because the pain it brought up was pain she saw everyday. Not a day went by where she didn't see the events of Bahrain and what she was forced to do. That evening, May, invited Grant Ward into her hotel room for a nightcap and an evening of forgetting.
When they were called in to be the "welcome wagon," May prepared herself for anything. She had seen this go south before. Shooting the "gifted girl" earned her the anger of Skye. But she had done so for the greater good of everyone who had been standing outside the house. The situation could have easily gotten more out of hand than it already was had she not intervened. No one else needed to get hurt. Later she was instrumental in convincing the true man behind everything to "let her go." She used the very same words that Coulson had used in Bahrain and it seemed to work. Tobias moved on and Hannah Hutchins was free from her tormentor.
Though she was still wary of Mike Peterson she worked with him when they went to infiltrate a Centipede base. Later when Coulson was taken in exchange for Mike's son, and Mike seemingly had perished in the following explosion, May worked with her team tirelessly to find where Coulson was. When Victoria Hand asked her whether or not Skye should remain on board, May, suggested that she was of no use. Which was true. Their bus was now full of Shield agents who would be watching their moves far too closely. In order for Skye's skills to be used to their fullest she needed to be out of the system. Later she hid her amusement over Skye dressing exactly like her. But deep down it touched something inside of her heart. The very parts of her heart that she had spent years burying.
May accompanied Coulson to Mexico City on their mission to discover what they could about the redacted file on Skye’s parents. There they find the only living Shield agent that could shed some light on the mystery behind what went down in the village. They learn that the agents had been sent to the village to investigate an 084 but when they arrived all they found was a baby and death surrounding her. Later when they have Quinn in custody and Skye’s life hangs in the balance, May, storms into the interrogation room on the bus and proceeds to take out her anger on him. Skye had managed to become one of the people that she considered family and the possibility of losing her was breaking down the tough wall that May had built up around herself.
Much later after they fought the Asgardian Lorelai, May, used her secret phone line informing Fury that Coulson knew about T.A.H.I.T.I. When Fitz discovered and cut her secret phone line she knew that he needed to be neutralised. She had intended to knock him out and put him in a room so that she could assess their situation more. But it all went wrong. Coulson eventually shot her with the Night Night gun and threw her in with Ward. May knew that Coulson was confused and pissed but she needed to explain why she did what she did. If only he would give her the chance.
Though he allowed her to remain with them after the Hub had been retaken, May, was beginning to realise the cost of what she had done for Fury. She had lost Coulson’s trust and potentially even friendship. When he left her behind at Providence base with Ward and Skye, May, chose to leave. She couldn’t help Coulson if she remained on base like he wanted. Her only option was to leave. And leave she did calling upon the one person -- in this new world -- that she could trust, her mother.
Her mother helped her locate Maria Hill and with that intel in hand, May, went off to get the answers to her questions. When Maria told her that Fury had said that he’d “buried that information when he buried Coulson,” Melinda knew where she needed to go. Under the cover of darkness and well into the daylight, May, dug up Coulson’s grave and found a flashdrive in his casket. Returning to her car she watched the video and then set out to find her team; but mostly Coulson. She had the answers that he was seeking and it was time that he was given those answers.
After they took down Garrett, arrested Grant Ward, and Coulson was named Director of the “New Shield,” the remaining members of the team set out to the coordinates within Fury’s toolbox. Once there they were reunited with Simmons who informed them that Fitz was alive. He may not be the same Fitz but he was alive and that was enough to quell some of the worry May was feeling.
Over the next couple of months, May, took it upon herself to continue Skye’s Shield training. She would teach her everything that she needed to know to be a good field agent. At the same time she was Deputy Director and helping Coulson rebuild Shield and attain the assets they needed. Whilst also monitoring his alien writing episodes. They’d made a deal after the first one that she would always be there when he had an episode. And that if action needed to be taken she would get him out. Coulson figured that she meant she’d shoot him but May had a plan. And it didn’t involve shooting him.
On a mission to retrieve the first 084, Team Bus, had a secondary mission to retrieve one of Shield’s old jets. They may have had Fitz back with them but Simmons had left on an assignment and he wasn’t the old Fitz. There had been too much damage done by a lack of oxygen and it was taking too long for him to reverse engineer the cloaking ability the jets were equipped with. They were working in the shadows -- avoiding the U.S. military that saw them as terrorists -- and Shield could do so much more good if they could just cloak their plane. Their secondary mission was successful and they were able to steal one of the jets but it came at a price. Their primary mission went south and they lost Hartley, Idaho and the Obelisk. New Shield was off to a grand old start.
Though May hates undercover work she and Coulson go undercover to locate a painting that has the same alien carvings as the ones he had been etching for months. As the mission comes to an end, May -- having broken free from her captors -- is forced to fight a Hydra operative that has “stolen” her face. There isn’t enough time to find out exactly who the operative was and escape the police so May and Coulson escape with the painting.
Later after Coulson’s need to carve ends, they find the alien city, they lose Trip and Skye’s released from quarantine, May, feels she can move on to the next crisis. Little did she know that the next crisis would be the return of Sif and lead to the reveal of Skye’s powers. While most of the team are notable afraid and perceive Skye to be a danger to them, May, understands how she feels. There was once a little girl with powers that were out of her control and she was unable to save her. But history would not repeat itself. May knew that all Skye needed to do was to control her emotions and it would perhaps help her to control her powers.
When Sif and the Kree soldier tried to destroy Skye because she was an “abomination” May stood in their way. She would take them out before they were allowed to harm a member of her family. In the end she didn’t have to fight them because Skye knocked herself out proving that perhaps not all who were changed by the “diviner” were monsters. Perhaps they could learn to control their abilities and live among society as people and not as weapons
Though Coulson is the one to mention that they may need to call in a consultant to help Skye, the idea had already passed through her mind. And the person involved had as well. It didn’t take long for May to track down where her ex-husband was and convince him that Shield needed his help. She also wasn’t surprised that by telling Skye that the psychologist that she would be evaluated by was her ex-husband caused her to be less apprehensive. And when it was all said and done -- and Skye was recovering from having unknowingly injured herself as she panicked -- May was not surprised that Andrew would rather not be involved with Shield. He stopped consulting long ago and this had been done as a favor to her.
SPECIAL ABILITIES AND SKILLS Skilled Fighter: May is excellent at hand to hand combat. She may even hold more blackbelts than Black Widow herself. When it comes to a fight most agents go in with either their weapon of choice or whatever they are given. But not Melinda May. Melinda will take a gun or knife if she needs one.
Skilled Pilot: In the course of her field training she also took the necessary courses to become a registered pilot. And though SHIELD had their own “fleet” of aircrafts available to them she is pretty much able to fly just about anything. She is also skilled enough that she can creatively outfly aircrafts that are tailing them and/or attempting to lock on to fire on them.
Tai Chi: Her mother, Lian, taught her at a very young age the basics of Tai Chi and she has never forgotten it or stopped. In fact, every morning at 5 am she awakes and spends at minimum an hour doing it.
Pianist: No one save for her ex husband is aware of the fact that she is a pretty damn good pianist. After Bahrain she couldn’t find it in her to play anymore as it reminded her of the happier times in her life. But she has never forgotten how to play. Someone just needs to coerce her into playing and then you all shall be amazed.